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I need a new name for my blog September 3, 2017

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 10:23 pm

I need a new name for my blog. Any ideas? I started it as a way to blog about my weight loss and running journey, when I was doing one run a month for a year. That goal has long passed and my this needs a new name now as its direction has changed a bit.  I will still blog about my running. I have a marathon coming up at the end of the month… a destination marathon but Im not giving away any secrets yet. I also add more about what is going on with my work life and personal life ( although now with work I have less of a personal life).

In my last post I talked about my mom, selling and buying a new house and how the last almost year has changed me. Ive felt lost without her, and needed to make some changes. It just so happens I made them all in about the first 6 months since she died.

I moved into my new house in Feb and I am all settled in now and I love my place. It feels like “home” and that is more important to me now than it ever was. Stability is good when you feel like the rest of your life was tossed upside down.

Work is another part of my life that I felt that I needed to change. I was finding that I wasn’t enjoying work any more. There was too much sadness there and I was finding it more and more difficult to handle. I used to love going to work and would come in extra and stay late etc and the months after my mom died I found it was the last place I wanted to be. I needed a change, needed to get away from the sadness. I thought long and hard and talked to my family about it and I decided that I would apply for a different nursing job. One that wasn’t as intense but I still wanted to work with kids. I applied and got a job at a pediatric urgent care clinic. I was lucky that it was with the same facility I work in now and just had to transfer, so I didn’t have to start completely over. I gave my notice in the ICU at the end of June and by July 4 I was out of there and working in the clinic.  I was nervous at first and scared that I made the wrong decision. My position in the ICU was already given to someone else so it wasn’t like I could just go back if the clinic didn’t work out. I just had to jump in with my eyes closed. I was kind of used to doing this by now. It turns out that it was the right move. Im so happy there. The stress that I didn’t even know I had was gone. I am smiling more, sleeping better, eating better, and the best part is.. I have more of a real person work schedule. 🙂

In Nov it will be one year since mom died. I miss her and think about her everyday. I still cry and I know that the person I was before she died is not the same person that I am now. My mom gave me my stand mixer a few christmases ago. I named it Martha ( after Martha Stewart). I used to bake all the time, along with running it was my passion. Ive continued to run but Ive stopped baking. Im not sure why, it was something I enjoyed so much before.  I would bake things and give them to mom or take pics and show them to her and she would respond with some corny comment about how good it looked. Im hoping that now that I’m in a better place I’ll get the baking itch back.

Im lucky to have wonderful friends and family who understand and support all the craziness that Ive had this last year. Am I done making big life changes? I hope so. Im ready to settle down and finally feel content.


i promise im alive May 5, 2017

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 9:58 pm

My first post of 2017 and it will be a long one. My last post had me talking about the NYC marathon so let me fill you in on what has happened since then. Some of it good, some of it not so good. Some has to do with running and some doesnt but ill spill it all.

After the NYC marathon in 2015 .. yes 2015  I was gearing up for my next race which was supposed to take place in july of 2016 and it was going to be the Rock and Roll marathon in Seattle. I went to seattle and met up with a friend who lived there. The morning of the race it was cold and rainy. I got to the start line and just wasnt feeling myself but i was going to run anyways. Well i got a half mile into the run and realized i couldnt do it. I had to walk myself to the first medical station on the route and tell them that i couldnt continue. I had to wait an hour for a van to come and take me back to the start. THey were so nice that they drove me back to the hotel. I was so cold .. shivering down to the bone. I took a long hot shower and climbed into my hotel bed and it took hours for me to warm up. I had a slight fever that day but i didnt know it when i started the race. After rest and relaxing that day in the hotel i woke up the next day feeling better. I knew something was wrong because even when im sick im able to run, but this time i had no energy. When i went home i went to the doctor and we got labs drawn just to make sure things were ok. Well long story short it turned out i was severly anemic and after some blood transfusions, an overnight stay in the hospital and numerous tests it turned out that i had a couple ulcers that were bleeding and causing all the problems. It took me awhile after that to get back into my old running pace and distance but when i was finally feeling better and getting my energy back i decided i was going to take 2016 off of racing and just focus on my health and not so much training.  I still ran but i ran for fun instead of a specific goal.

In OCT of 2016 we got news that my mom only had about 6 months left. She had been battling multiple myeloma for 8 years and her body was not reacting to the treatments anymore. I had signed up to run a marathon in Nashville in April before we got this news and i wasn’t going to go anymore since i wanted to be home to be with her. Three weeks after the prognosis my mother passed away and it threw my life upside down. If you read my first entry on this blog then you will know that i started running because of her. I started running to earn money for LLS. SHe was my inspiration and she fought hard for 8 years. Its only been 6 months and its still like it just happened and these days im just putting one foot in front of the other some days. My sister and I decided that my mom would have wanted me to go and do the race, so i went and my sister came with me ( ill get to the race in a bit). In the 6 months since mom died, I sold my house and bought a new one that is closer to my siblings and my nieces and nephews. It felt right and Im so glad i did it .

Flash forward to last weekend. Nashville Rock and Roll marathon. It was on saturday April 29. My sister came with me as support and a bonding sister trip. We needed to do something together and just be sisters (not moms, nurses, wives etc). It was a great trip.  We did all the touristy things, Grand Ole Opry, Country music hall of fame, walking food tours, bars, bus tours. The night before the race they informed us that it was supposed to be hot so they changed the start times so that we would be starting earlier than the 730 start time. I got to the start line at 530 in the morning for the 645am start. It was already 83 degrees and 80 percent humid at 0530 am. The race directors were encouraging the marathon runners to consider downgrading and running the half. It wasnt even a consideration for me. I trained hard and I was going to do the full marathon. It started out great. I was on about a 9 min mile pace ( which is slow for me but in marathons you always start slow and then speed up).

It was very hilly and hot and humid. By mile 2 i was dripping in sweat but i kept going. It got hot and more humid as the day went on. People were standing in their front yards spraying us with garden hoses and sprinklers. At mile 15 my quads were sore from all the uphill in the first half. It was the first time i had to stop and walk. By mile 20 i knew i wasnt going to make my 4 hour goal but since it was soo hot and humid i was ok with that. I passed so many people that were in the medic tents because of the conditions of the weather, people collasping on lawns, being taken away by paramedics. I finised the race in 5 hours and 3 mins and just as i crossed the finish line they informed us that they were calling the race early because of the heat.

Im happy that i was able to finish the race and that i was not hurt or that nothing happened because of the heat. Im so glad that i was able to experience this weekend with my sister. My mom is usually the one that i would call or text after the race and i got emotional as i crossed the finish line and realized that I wouldnt get to talk to her. As soon as I crossed the finish line i was barraged with texts from my sister who was waiting back at the hotel and my brother and sis in law and step dad who were all cheering me on from home, and I knew I would be ok. It will take some time but I will be ok.. we will be ok.


Its been a year October 18, 2016

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 6:47 pm

wow. where have i been? its been almost a year since I have last posted. I dont have any excuses except that I have just been lame. To recap the last year or so ill be brief. In Nov of 2015 I ran the NYC marathon. It was an experience I will never forget … and NEVER do again. 🙂 Its not because it was horrible .. in fact it wasnt. I had a good time. I was able to spend time with my bestie and her adorable family that lives there.  I also now have the esteemed honor of saying that I ran in the five burroughs of NYC. How many people can say that?


It was not my best or fastest marathon. In fact i completed in just over 5:30. My goal was 4:30. It starts out with the first mile uphill over a bridge in staten Island…. then there are five more bridges along the race.. they were the worst. The crowds cheering us on were probably the best I have seen in any race ever. We ran by a church in one of the burroughs and the church choir was on the steps singing . it was very cool to see. All in all it was a great race, but it was hard. I dont feel the need to do it again but im glad I did do it.



Ive stayed off the races for the most part since then. I did go to seattle in june to run the Rock and Roll Seattle Marathon but i got sick and couldnt run.. but Seattle was great!. Its one of my favorite cities by far ( and i have a friend there too).

whats in store for me this year? This year is not going to have a lot of major running commitments and life requires me to be a bit more flexible for a bit. I did sign up to run a Rock and Roll Marathon in Tennessee in April, and so far that is the only race I have planned.

I also am proud to announce that i am an ambassador for the Mermaid Series runs. They are an amazing group that encourages and empowers woment to make changes in their health and fitness, set goals and help women achieve them. They put on very well organized races, and they are by far one of the best series of races i have ever done. You even get a necklace at the end of the races. I am honored to have this responsibility. So, look forward to more from me in the next year as I bring you along in my journey to be a mermaid.


NYC marathon October 21, 2015

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 4:44 am

wow i haven’t updated here in awhile. I don’t have an excuse, just work and life getting in the way.

2014 was not the best year for me and 2015 started out rough but is gonna end on the upside since my new adorable nephew was born on the 15th. what can i say… I’m in love and i love being an aunt. If this was a blog about babies i would continue but it is a running blog so i will talk about running…

when i started my running journey i decided i was going to make a running goal for myself every year. At first it was to run 12 races in a year, which i did. Then it was to run a marathon, which i have done twice. in 2015 I u going to run any races but that changed when i remember the goal I set for myself for this year was to run a destination marathon. So i bit the bullet and registered for the New york marathon. I didn’t make the time cut off for automatic entrance, and i missed the deadline for the lottery but was still able to get in by fundraising for one of the charities that the NY marathon sponsors.

I raised 2,620 for TEAM for kids. Its a NY based program that helps provide outdoor sports and activities for kids who would otherwise be able to participate due to money issues. Being that I am a pediatric nurse I thought this was the one that was closest to my heart. I hope to help make one of these kids obtain a passion for running much like I have.

Ive been to NY many times, my best friend lives there, so that was another reason i chose the NYC marathon. Plus, I heard it was an amazing race to run. So, this weekend i pack my bags and prepare to travel to NY to run through all five boroughs on nov 1.  Im excited, a man at the gym i train at asked me one day why i run so long. I told him i was training for the NY marathon. As it gets closer and closer he asks me everyday if I’m nervous. My answer is always no, not yet. Ive run 26.2 miles twice before.  Im more nervous about what the weather is going to be like. The running thing Ive gotten down. Im aiming to do this in 3;2o mins.

Next time you hear from me on here will be the post marathon update with pics of course. Now if you excuse me I have to continue looking at pics of my adorably cute 5 day old nephew.


its been awhile May 24, 2015

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 9:23 pm

I know I know its been awhile, I can’t say that I have been too busy to update things here, i just haven’t had much running wise to update about. I haven’t been training for anything (up til now) but I am still running.

After I ran the SF marathon in July of 2014 ( see previous post) I told myself i was not going to run any races in 2015. Training is hard on the body and I felt after this marathon that I had lost the fun of running. I told myself that in 2015 I was going to find the fun again and run just for “me”.  Ive been going to the gym and running on the treadmill lately. I also after this marathon didn’t really want to run outside for some reason ( I’m not sure why). I know the treadmill and running outside are different as there are no real obstacles to get through on a treadmill, but to me its tougher.

Despite telling myself that I was not going to run any races in 2015, the nagging feeling of wanting to do a destination marathon was still there so i spontaneously decided to run the NYC marathon in Nov of 2015. I didn’t time qualify for an automatic entry and missed the lottery timeframe so i decided I was going to raise money for one of the charities that the NYC marathon sponsors. I am running and raising money for TEAM FOR KIDS. If i raise my goal I get to run the NYC marathon.
Please check out my page below for TEAM FOR KIDS and find out why i chose this organization and more about why i wanted for run the NYC marathon. Any donations to help me reach my goal will be greatly appreciated. Thank you




SF marathon experience July 30, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 6:17 pm

This was my second year running the SF marathon. Last year it was my first marathon ever. I didn’t really enjoy it. It was hard and I hit the wall about half way in. I finished it in 4:31 and swore I would never do it again. About a month after the marathon last year I was browsing the website for pics and i saw an application for 2014 ambassadors. I applied on a whim, and a few months later was chosen to represent the 2014 SF marathon as an ambassador. What did that entail? Promoting the marathon, encourage other people to sign up for it and above all meet new people who are passionate about running and of course have fun. I represented SF marathon in my orange swag and met a bunch of great people. 


Being an ambassador this year completely changed my marathon experience and I enjoyed it 100%.  I loved meeting new people who are just as passionate about running as I am and who understand my craziness when it comes to running. The weekend started out with working the expo on Friday and Saturday.  One of the highlights was the shake out run with famous runner Bart Yasso. Myself and some of the other ambassadors led the run and ran along side him. He is amazing and so full of great advice and just an all around nice guy. 












The morning of the race I was feeling good. I wasn’t nervous. I told myself just go out there and have fun and as long as you finish it will be a successful day. I started in wave 3 and got into a steady pace fairly quickly. The weather was nice. It was foggy and cool but not too cold. Mile 5-8 was running across the GG bridge. There is something to be said for running across the bridge covered in fog with alcatraz in the distance and the ocean on both sides. Its stunning! 


After the bridge we headed into GG park. This is about a 5 mile loop that we run through the park and we get to see the buffalo, the lake, the flower garden and its also very pretty ( but not my favorite part of the race). This point last year my legs started cramping and I had to stop to stretch and walk. This year however, I felt good and was still going strong. I didn’t need to stop and I was just enjoying my music and my view. The first half marathon finished in GG park and the 2nd half started…. i kept going. 

After the GG park we ran through Haight Asbury and Protrero hill. The spectators were great, offering free hugs and even bringing out a bubble machine. It was great to see their enthusiasm so early in the morning and even for people they didn’t know. 

I had been going strong and hadn’t needed to stop until mile 24. I started getting tired and felt a small cramp in my leg, I had to stretch and walk a bit before it got worse. Up to this point I had been trying to maintain my status in keeping pace with the 3:55 pacers.  At mile 25 I told myself that I had to finish strong so I ran the last 1.2 miles, leg cramps and all. I finished with a time of 3:59. 


I felt great, I beat my time from last year by 32 mins. I pushed myself hard this year but I felt great. I had so much fun this year I already want to do it again. 

I don’t know that I would have enjoyed myself as much if I didn’t have the experience of being an ambassador this year and have the opportunity to meet so many wonderful people. I hope I can do it again next year and represent the SF marathon again. 

Thank you SF marathon and fellow ambassadors for a great racing experience. 

Now that I don’t have to train I don’t know what to do with myself… time to find a new race 😉


marathon training May 16, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — runningnurse12 @ 6:39 pm

well…. I must first apologize for my hiatus. I haven’t been able to get myself to update on here. Everytime I think about it I tell myself that people don’t really want to know or care how many miles I’m running or what races I’m doing so I put it off. Today, I realized that this blog is for me to be able to look back at my running journey and see how far Ive come and if other people enjoy reading about it then thats even better.

Im in the thick of my marathon training. Im on week 8 of 18 and going strong ( check back after i hit the 20 mile long runs. I might be singing a different tune then). Usually I run around my neighborhood and have been averaging about 25-35 miles a week, but now my weekend long runs are getting longer so the weekly average is more like 35-45.  Ive also been able to meet some fellow tsfm ambassadors for some runs.

Its been really fun meeting new local runners who are just as (crazy as I am as my friend puts it). The first meet up was at a thursday night run at sports basement in campbell. If you didn’t know they have free classes and on thursday nights they have a group of people who meet up to run. Some just like to run with other people, some are getting in training mileage for an upcoming race.

I met fellow ambassadors Becky and Erin there and we promoted the sf marathon and ran together. It was a hot one but fun meeting them for the first time. It was the first time i had met any other ambassadors.  I also met Alisyn and Paulette (fellow ambassadors) for a run this last weekend . Alisyn is going to bunk with me marathon weekend so I thought it would be a good idea for us to meet each other first. It was a fun run and I did surprisingly well considering it was the day after my half marathon. I did go for a massage afterwards though.












Last weekend my long run was supposed to be 14 miles. I signed up to run the mermaid series half marathon that weekend so it was perfect. What can i say about the mermaid series runs.. they are fantabulous!. Last year was my first race with the mermaids and I did the 18 mile run and believe it or not I enjoyed it. I know i know … no one else  except another crazy runner can understand enjoying running 18 miles but with this group its so much fun. The mermaid series is women only.. well men can run but they can’t win. I only saw two men running this year. The fellow runners are so supportive and encouraging to each other and cheer each other on while running. Its awesome to see the camaraderie. They also have the best running shirts out of all I’ve obtained so far, I find I run in theirs the most. Ok enough accolades about the mermaid series lets get back to the race.













It was the longest run I had done since the SF marathon last year. I think prior to this I got up to 12 miles. I know one more mile is not that much longer but when I run by myself I tend to run a bit slower and average 8:35-8:45 min miles and on races the adrenaline gets to me and I run a bit faster. This race I averaged 8:20-8:30 min miles, so my legs were a bit mad at me after this race but I had a good excuse to get my massage the next day. I know I know who NEEDS an excuse to get a massage.

I tend to pick someone ahead of me at the start and my goal at the end of the race is to finish before them. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t but its the little game I play with myself. I ran the race in 1:51. It was not my fastest half marathon but like I said I haven’t run a long race since the marathon last year. There were 300 women running the half marathon and I finished 23 out of 300. One day my goal is to come in first place in my age group. This is always a fun race and you get a cute necklace at the end (unfortunately they are not handed out by hunky firemen in tuxedos like the nike women’s marathon). I don’t know what race if any is next for me, aside from the SF marathon on July 27th but my training will continue and Ill keep up better on here.